If he has been restrained a long time and I have been enjoying watching him squirm..and then had the chance to strip away his power again and again, to make him do things he finds unenjoyable just to please me -- we are getting closer.
I have been thinking again about just what it is that attracts me to dominating men.
And while there are elements of domination that I find very exciting, there is one key aspect to a BDSM situation that makes it ideal for me — the orgasm of a scene, so to speak.
The point where I get chills all over me — much like an orgasm — where my toes curl and I get kind of a humming in my ear and everything seems to go a little hazy.
The femdom orgasm, so to speak.
What is it that makes me get this way?
I have realized that it is the point of an interaction where I feel he has truly given himself over to me. And that’s a bit vague, and it can come in different actions, but it’s the point where it occurs to me, based on his actions, that we have reached that point.
If he has been restrained a long time and I have been enjoying watching him squirm..and then had the chance to strip away his power, again and again, to make him do things he finds unenjoyable just to please me — we are getting closer.
That look in his eyes when he can’t really believe anymore that he is doing this. But that he wants more.
It’s the moment when he asks for something and I can see it in his eyes that he can’t himself believe what he is hearing.
Asking for more, when it is for me, not for him.
When he has resigned himself to accept whatever he must for me. And it is the ultimate gift.
It never has to do with “one” act — it has to do with whatever that act is –for him. The one that he fears but needs to be pushed to do. That he would never do unless there was some reward in it — and the reward is seeing how it pleased me.
Words can’t really do it justice.
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